They say grief has 5 stages, like 5 train stops to healing. But in the last two years, grief was more of a pendulum, going from one stage to another many times over. - denial: it can't happen that civilians are shot, bombed, or fall in hospitals, schools, malls. That women and children are raped, tortured, killed. - anger: we hate them, we will hate them always, let's donate for bullets for the ugly invaders - bargaining: I volunteer every week for Ukrainian causes, I will be so good - just make it stop - depression: is there a point in anything in this world - acceptance: until next news