Twenty-five years ago, I attended a drama school and came quite close to becoming an actor. Although I made a different life choice, that experience significantly influenced my personality. In 2023, I embarked on a project-investigation, returning to the theater environment, this time as an external observer. I aimed to reevaluate my experiences and memories. This project was captured at the experimental theater "Total Theater" in Almaty, Kazakhstan. In this project, the boundary between the audience and the stage, between what happens before and after the performance, becomes blurred.